| Location | Eastbourne |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Miscarriage |
| Date of Birth | 28/08/2007 |
| Date of Death | 28/08/2007 |
| Visitors | 973 since 23/09/2008 |
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Well I found out on 26th July 2007 (Ashlee's Babi's (Daddy) birthday, that we were pregnant! we
couldnt have been happier! i had already had cravings for ice lollies and custard, so kind of knew i
was pregnant before i done the test.
things went okay the first week and then i started bleeding slightly, went to hospital to the early
pregnancy unit, and they said there was nothing they could do and to come back in 10 days for
another scan, anyway, had a couple more scans, one in which they could see bubba, but no heartbeat,
and the next one they could see bubba but again no heartbeat, and they said i was probably out with
my dates, and baby was not as many weeks as i had thought.
i carried on, hoping things would be okay, and i enjoyed being pregnant, and carried on the cravings
for ice cream and custard, mcflurrys were definitely on the menu! we planned for the future and i
even bought some little clothes(couldnt help myself).
my hubby had to go back and visit his home country, to see his dad, who was very ill, and it was
then that things started going wrong, i had pains in my back, and on 27th august i had really bad
back ache and on 28th august 2007, while at my friends house, i miscarried, i knew what had happened
but the hospital couldnt see me, they said wait til the morning as there was nothing they could do
as i was only 8 weeks gone:(
went to the hospital the next day and they confirmed it, baby had gone:( i decided on a natural
miscarriage for what was left (baby had left me the day before) and it took a good few weeks for my
hcg levels to come back to normal.
i miss my baby so much and i wish more than anything that this had not happened and i would have a
baby here with me,. instead i have an angel to be a mummy to.
i always referred to my bump as she and her, so i thought she must be a girl, and i decided on the
name Ashlee as my late auntie used to call my hubby that as she couldnt say his name.
my hubby was away during this time so i had to go through this kind of alone, i stayed at my sisters
but really wanted my hubby home:(
i kept wishing it was a mistake and that when the next scan was done to see the miscarriage progress
they would say they had been mistaken and there is babys heartbeat but it didnt happen:(
i miss my baby with all my heart and soul and wish so much things could have been different, but
they werent, so now i am mummy to an angel, love you Ashlee, xxxx
babyloss awareness day
hello my beautiful princess!
today is baby loss awareness day, thursday 15th october 2009.
mummy has lit 2 candles and gathered together the angel ornaments i have brought in your memory Ashlee.
Mummy and Babi miss you so so much, i know he is not here at the moment as he is working hard, but i know he will be thinking of you just the same as he always does,.
love you princess, enjoy the wave of light, and all the pretty lights you will see. xxxx
another poem mummy wrote
a moment in my tummy
a lifetime in my heart
i never will forget you
i loved you from the start
my world was tipped upside down
2 years ago today
when you grew your wings inside of me
and went to heaven to play
you were so very wanted
i think of you all the time
i miss you and i love you
sweet angel baby of mine
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a poem on your 2nd angelversary
we have an angel baby
so beautiful, its true
our hearts were very broken
when off to heaven you flew
you grew your wings inside of me
2 years ago today
we never will forget you
it's very true to say
if tears could build a stairway
and memories a lane
we'd walk right up to heaven
and bring you home again
i dont know why he took you
maybe it was a test
or maybe its just true to say
he only takes the best!
we love you Ashlee.
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2 years today
it was 2 years ago today that you grew your wings and went to heaven and mummy and babi miss you so much it still hurts as if it were only yesterday.
a million words would not bring you back,
i know because ive tried,
neither would a million tears,
i know because ive cried.
miss you so much my baby girlie and i know you know how much you were wanted but seems nanny wanted you more, so you went to live with her in heaven, it is comforting to know you are well looked after and one day we will meet and i will never have to let you go again.
love you my baby girlie,.
te dua shume always................
love mummy and babi
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missing you so much
hello my princess!
mummy and babi are thinking of you so much more this week. this time 2 years ago everything started to go wrong, and mummy went into hospital to be told you might have gone to heaven, mummy is so sad this week, but dont be sad for me, because i will be fine,
i am pleased i was able to have you even for a short while in my tummy, and i love you more than i ever thought it was possible to love anyone!
you are my first baby, mine and babis and for this we will never forget.
you are always in our thoughts, you are never far from my mind and i know you can hear me when i sing you our special song that nanny used to sing tio mummy when i was a baby.
i know you are with nanny and everyone else and i know they are looking after you but i wish so so much things could have been verydifferent and i would be sitting here relaxing after a hard days play with you instead of sitting here writing this.
mummy and babi love you so so much and miss you so much more. mummy is gonna buy you a gift on here instead of sending up a balloon, and i am going to make you a very special card and light you a candle because we love you and miss you lots,
always in my heart and mind, and in babis too,
love you princess.
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2 years ago today
hello Ashlee,
mummy has been remembering 2 years ago today, babi's 29th birthday, when i found out i was carrying you.
such a special day, of course we didnt know we were not going to get to hold you then, and i loved you from the moment i saw that lil line come up telling mummy she was pregnant,.
today is babi's 31st birthday and you would have been here for about 16 months now. would be walking and maybe saying a few lil words,
i love you princess, so does babi, i have put your name on his special pressie,
love you lots miss your more bubba!
love from mummy
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a poem from mummys friend
mummys friend sent me this and i thought i would put it here because it is lovely
Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mama please don't cry~
"Cause I am in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies."
Please, try not to question God,
Don't think he is unkind
Don't think He sent me to you,
and then He changed his mind.
You see, I am a special child,
and I'm needed up above
I'm the special gift you gave Him,
the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you
and watch the sky at night,
Find the brightest star that's gleaming,
That's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost,
that mists your window pane.
That's me in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a little breeze,
from a gentle wind that blows
That's me, I'll be there,
planting a kiss on your nose.
When you see a child playing,
and your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there,
giving your heart a hug.
So Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mama don't your cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies.
miss you bubba, love you loads.
love from your mummy. xxxx
the verse on your card
To Ashlee,
Our dear baby Daughter
An angel you became
We never got to hold you
Our lives are not the same
Now it is your Birthday
Today you would have been One
We Love You and we Miss you
But we know you're having fun!
Up in Heavens Nursery
Games are being played
And while you're having fun
Cakes are being made!
You are a special Angel
And although we are apart
There will always be a place for you
In Mummy and Babi's Hearts!
All our love forever and a day
Mummy and Babi
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hope you like the balloon mummy and babi will send up later, also mummy has got a small pink windmill for the garden and i am making some cakies for your birthday we will blow out one candle for you ashlee, love you so much hope you are having fun!
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Today should have been so different.................
hello mummys angel!
today would have been your 1st birthday if you had stayed, you were due on 29th March 2008, and mummy has been thinking about you so much, you would have teethy pegs by now, and would be saying words and trying different foods, and maybe even walking a bit!
mummy is missing so many of your firsts and i know you wouldnt like mummy to be sad but mummy wishes things could be different, i wish today was filled with jelly and ice cream and finger foods and a few little friends and all the family here for your 1st birthday. instead i get to send a balloon to heaven and put up a single card, when i should be having to make space for your cards and mine to all sit together!
i love you so much princess, i will never forget you, you are my first baby and i love you more than you know. i dont talk about you a lot i know, but that is because some people dont understand how i can feel the way i do after carrying you for only a little time but the saying a moment in my womb, a lifetime in my heart is so so true. mummy loves you and misses you and so does babi he has been talking about you a lot more lately, and he is coming home today and we are going to send you a balloon, one of mummys from her birthday, i wanted to share with you, because if you were here with us you would have played with them so i am sending one to you to play with in heaven with all your angel friends.
babi is sad you are not here with us ashlee, so is mummy, we both wish things could have been so so different, bu8t as it is we are proud mummy and babi to an angel in heaven, and i know you are being a good girl for nanny. give nanny a kiss from mummy and from auntie tracie we miss her too, and we miss everyone there in heaven with you, i know you have lots of family there in heaven, so i know you are being well looked after ashlee,
have a lovely day beyond the clouds, catch a few stars and put them in the night sky i will look for them when it gets dark princess, i have sent you some floaty kisses i hope you got them, i just wish i could be hugging you today and singing happy birthday to you ashlee, surrounded by wrapping paper (that you would have played with more than the presents! lol), and gifts and cards and people coming round for a little party, with tiny fairy cakes and sandwiches, you would have loved it, i bet thats what your having in heaven, i wish, if only for a second i could take a peek at you and see what you are up to today.
have a lovely day puddin, mummy and babi love you so much and miss you so much more!
have a great time on your 1st birthday.
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Mummys Birthday
hello beautiful angel!
today is mummys 28th birthday, and i wish so so much that you were here to share it with me, although i know you wont be far away today, i love you so much and i wish things could have been different,
love you lots and miss you so so much more!
love from mummy,
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